Best day in a while
December 15th 2006 06:48
Oh my gosh. okay, i want to write this but god am I tired, I had a very very busy but GREAT day!
Kathy picked me up at 11:15. She told me she liked my article that was accepted into the autism magazine. We made good conversation all the way there, something quite unusual for her/us, she's not usually conversational.
Ohhh, I got to Portland at noon and it was BEAUTIFUL out, it was like 53 degrees!!! In December, mid December! Blue sky and so beautiful. I was psyched. I dropped my stuff and danced in Monument Square, which I haven't done in so long. God, do I love the feeling of dancing! Nothing on country stns so turned to you cant always get what ya want by stones on Frank.
Had lunch at Subway, then walked to get a smoothie at Cold Stone, enjoying the beautiful weather, singing.... flatbread at onaturals....and back up to congress just in time for the bus to falmouth at 1:30.
There was an accident on the way there, that we were stopped behind for a while, and I was afraid I'd be very late for my meeting at the school, but luckily that was not the case.
Yarmouth taxi guy picked me up in Falmouth. Was very nervous when I got in. About going to see my teachers at school. And even about talking to him after not seeing him for so long! i have to say the windham taxi guy is a little bit, ok a good bit , more friendly and conversational than him.
he dropped me off at food stop a few min before 230. I was nervous, but determined. Walked in the building trying to keep resolve up.
Saw Mr McKeone which was a surprise because he's not listed on the school website anymore ... said very clearly and confidently "Hi, Mr. McKeone," enunciating every syllable, looking him in the eye, or at least face,
and after that I felt much better, the first hurdle was cleared and I felt more confident i could do this.
It took me asking four people to find out where mr curry's new classroom was, didn't know he moved. I actually asked two or three high school students on different occasions - which is big for me cus Im usually scared to death of high school students- they were friendly and considerate to me, and helpful, which gave me a big boost as i was not quite so afraid of them - was able to see I didnt have the proverbial green horn on my face after all.
Found him finally in the upstairs of the old junior high - EEEK ! some of my worst memories are from there, BUT, they completely redid the junior high (which was really disorienting) so that was good, no memories.
So. I talked to Mr. Curry for something like 45 min. go me! Showed him both my balt sun article on AS and the CS submission. He was accepting, warm - when he read Balt Sun he ran out into the hall way to show the article to mrs dexter saying "this is the most articulate and clear article i have ever read on this subject" or sometinh like that! he said he had had students with AS before and told me a little about them. very casually no pressure no embarassment , i usually am embarassed when i try to do something like this.
told him about other stuff i was up to, he did the same, we talked about politics for a little - local races in standish/windham, he had ran for representative, etc. I love his enthusiasm and sense of humor.
It felt good
Then I went over to the HS even tho it was 330 to see if i could catch the secretaries before they left. no secretaries, but mrs carter accosted me in the doorway of the office lol "Kate ! Oh my gosh ! How are you?' actually it was quite nice.
Mrs thibault (tibo) was the only teacher left basically so i went to say hi to her.
The quality of my interactions with the teachers has changed so much, even with these brief encounters today. Every time I went to see mrs tibo or others in the few yrs following HS, i would to some degree still feel like I was still in high school... there was still a quality of child-adult or teacher-student to the interactions.... but this time there was such a different quality....I felt so much more sure of myself.... I was treated more like an adult, more like someone who had made something of my life since I left Greely, and saw myself that way more too, which was awesome.
Mrs Tibo was leaving so I offered to walk her home...cus she walks every day, I remmebered. Had such easy and beautiful conversation with her.... it flowed, ya know, unlike most of my convos. I even made a few jokes which went over well. I love that. felt connected to her. Felt not like a nervous HS studnet anymore.
When we walked back, she pointed out everything that had changed in cumberland since i'd last been there....that was nice.. i love walking and talkign w/ someone, dont usually get the chance.
I am so tired of writing this but so need to write it down to record it so i dont forget.
Being back in my hometown made me extremely happy. Maybe the happiest I've felt in the last seven months since I got here, quite possibly. Which is why it was worth all the taxi fares. I walked to greely road on that side walk path that I used to love....listenign to the radio.... laughed and shouted because it felt so good.... my old town fit me like a glove...so easy and familiar to be back, so many great memories mostly. .... . it was comforting, actually, to be back. very comforting.
Went to food stop which is actually the one place i didnt have an emotional reaction tolol thought i woul dsince i spent so much time there
Walked to the library. enjoyed that even tho i was tired. even went to see the parking lot ( i had danced there before, good memories).
Library was same as always, i went to the shelf of books that i had always liked the most, that had lots of psych books. then i went to a couch to sit and rest for a while, and at 5:15, taxi guy came.
Went to onaturals for dinner. had nice and amazingly smooth conversation with the guy who was preparing my dinner about the merits of falmouth vs portland onaturals, and the merits of flatbread, yum.
back to portland 630. library for hr. rested. arranged taxi to go home later. called grandma for a few min. was exhausted. got a book. with much effort lol.
Walked down to Wild Oats to meet Emily for dinner. Felt good.
Loved the feeling that I was an independent woman casually meeting a woman friend for dinner. That kind of stuff never happens to me. I am so envious of friends I see getting toghther. Now i was one.
I was afraid i d be too tired to talk But got energized when i saw emily and we had good conversation, it might have been the best part of the day. talked for an hr about writing, teachers, the state of the world, etc.
taxi came at 9, and I made MORE conversation with taxi guy #2 all the way back to home. I cannot believe the sheer amount of conversation I had today. I enjoyed it all.
went straight to bed for an hour or2 when got home lol
talked to today:
kathy
taxi guy
mr curry
mrs tibo
taxi guy
woman on metro back to portland - had cool dancing santas hat and pirouline cookies talked whole way back
library woman briefly
emily for hr
taxi guy on way back
counting it up thats about four hours of conversation WOAH my god
me is good
i am good
im amazed im not more tired than i am
didnt seem like that much hehe
I need to go drop in bed lol
more teachers tomorrow
Oh - I GOT ACCEPTED TO THE AUTISM CONFERENCE IN PHILLY (my proposal)
very exciting developments
night
Kate
Kathy picked me up at 11:15. She told me she liked my article that was accepted into the autism magazine. We made good conversation all the way there, something quite unusual for her/us, she's not usually conversational.
Ohhh, I got to Portland at noon and it was BEAUTIFUL out, it was like 53 degrees!!! In December, mid December! Blue sky and so beautiful. I was psyched. I dropped my stuff and danced in Monument Square, which I haven't done in so long. God, do I love the feeling of dancing! Nothing on country stns so turned to you cant always get what ya want by stones on Frank.
Had lunch at Subway, then walked to get a smoothie at Cold Stone, enjoying the beautiful weather, singing.... flatbread at onaturals....and back up to congress just in time for the bus to falmouth at 1:30.
There was an accident on the way there, that we were stopped behind for a while, and I was afraid I'd be very late for my meeting at the school, but luckily that was not the case.
Yarmouth taxi guy picked me up in Falmouth. Was very nervous when I got in. About going to see my teachers at school. And even about talking to him after not seeing him for so long! i have to say the windham taxi guy is a little bit, ok a good bit , more friendly and conversational than him.
he dropped me off at food stop a few min before 230. I was nervous, but determined. Walked in the building trying to keep resolve up.
Saw Mr McKeone which was a surprise because he's not listed on the school website anymore ... said very clearly and confidently "Hi, Mr. McKeone," enunciating every syllable, looking him in the eye, or at least face,
It took me asking four people to find out where mr curry's new classroom was, didn't know he moved. I actually asked two or three high school students on different occasions - which is big for me cus Im usually scared to death of high school students- they were friendly and considerate to me, and helpful, which gave me a big boost as i was not quite so afraid of them - was able to see I didnt have the proverbial green horn on my face after all.
Found him finally in the upstairs of the old junior high - EEEK ! some of my worst memories are from there, BUT, they completely redid the junior high (which was really disorienting) so that was good, no memories.
So. I talked to Mr. Curry for something like 45 min. go me! Showed him both my balt sun article on AS and the CS submission. He was accepting, warm - when he read Balt Sun he ran out into the hall way to show the article to mrs dexter saying "this is the most articulate and clear article i have ever read on this subject" or sometinh like that! he said he had had students with AS before and told me a little about them. very casually no pressure no embarassment , i usually am embarassed when i try to do something like this.
told him about other stuff i was up to, he did the same, we talked about politics for a little - local races in standish/windham, he had ran for representative, etc. I love his enthusiasm and sense of humor.
It felt good
Then I went over to the HS even tho it was 330 to see if i could catch the secretaries before they left. no secretaries, but mrs carter accosted me in the doorway of the office lol "Kate ! Oh my gosh ! How are you?' actually it was quite nice.
Mrs thibault (tibo) was the only teacher left basically so i went to say hi to her.
The quality of my interactions with the teachers has changed so much, even with these brief encounters today. Every time I went to see mrs tibo or others in the few yrs following HS, i would to some degree still feel like I was still in high school... there was still a quality of child-adult or teacher-student to the interactions.... but this time there was such a different quality....I felt so much more sure of myself.... I was treated more like an adult, more like someone who had made something of my life since I left Greely, and saw myself that way more too, which was awesome.
Mrs Tibo was leaving so I offered to walk her home...cus she walks every day, I remmebered. Had such easy and beautiful conversation with her.... it flowed, ya know, unlike most of my convos. I even made a few jokes which went over well. I love that. felt connected to her. Felt not like a nervous HS studnet anymore.
When we walked back, she pointed out everything that had changed in cumberland since i'd last been there....that was nice.. i love walking and talkign w/ someone, dont usually get the chance.
I am so tired of writing this but so need to write it down to record it so i dont forget.
Being back in my hometown made me extremely happy. Maybe the happiest I've felt in the last seven months since I got here, quite possibly. Which is why it was worth all the taxi fares. I walked to greely road on that side walk path that I used to love....listenign to the radio.... laughed and shouted because it felt so good.... my old town fit me like a glove...so easy and familiar to be back, so many great memories mostly. .... . it was comforting, actually, to be back. very comforting.
Went to food stop which is actually the one place i didnt have an emotional reaction tolol thought i woul dsince i spent so much time there
Walked to the library. enjoyed that even tho i was tired. even went to see the parking lot ( i had danced there before, good memories).
Library was same as always, i went to the shelf of books that i had always liked the most, that had lots of psych books. then i went to a couch to sit and rest for a while, and at 5:15, taxi guy came.
Went to onaturals for dinner. had nice and amazingly smooth conversation with the guy who was preparing my dinner about the merits of falmouth vs portland onaturals, and the merits of flatbread, yum.
back to portland 630. library for hr. rested. arranged taxi to go home later. called grandma for a few min. was exhausted. got a book. with much effort lol.
Walked down to Wild Oats to meet Emily for dinner. Felt good.
Loved the feeling that I was an independent woman casually meeting a woman friend for dinner. That kind of stuff never happens to me. I am so envious of friends I see getting toghther. Now i was one.
I was afraid i d be too tired to talk But got energized when i saw emily and we had good conversation, it might have been the best part of the day. talked for an hr about writing, teachers, the state of the world, etc.
taxi came at 9, and I made MORE conversation with taxi guy #2 all the way back to home. I cannot believe the sheer amount of conversation I had today. I enjoyed it all.
went straight to bed for an hour or2 when got home lol
talked to today:
kathy
taxi guy
mr curry
mrs tibo
taxi guy
woman on metro back to portland - had cool dancing santas hat and pirouline cookies talked whole way back
library woman briefly
emily for hr
taxi guy on way back
counting it up thats about four hours of conversation WOAH my god
me is good
i am good
im amazed im not more tired than i am
didnt seem like that much hehe
I need to go drop in bed lol
more teachers tomorrow
Oh - I GOT ACCEPTED TO THE AUTISM CONFERENCE IN PHILLY (my proposal)
very exciting developments
night
Kate
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